Good Morning

Right after I typed in the title of this post, I decided to google the song I have been googling for since I first heard it on the radio in a friend’s car in April. I was scrolling through my notes on my phone to search for the things I noted down to write about – it was then when I saw note on the lyrics that I had typed out in the car as the song was playing.


I couldn’t see it when the search results first appeared. I thought I had to wait a little while longer to be able to find it. I thought it was an American or some western song – I was surprised that a *western* song that made it to the radio couldn’t be found on google. I was wrong concerning the origins of the song – it’s actually a LOCAL SONG by Faizal Tahir and Jaclyn Victor.

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Faizal Tahir, Jaclyn Victor & Astro Radio All Stars – Faith

Look up to the skies and close my eyes
I feel you in my heart I see you
Trade all of my dreams to be with you
Hear me calling out where home would bound
Safe and sound

You will always be a part of us
Heart and tears we’ll stand as one
You will always shine through times dear friend
As our lives go on we soldier on
Highs and lows there’s still tomorrow
You will never walk alone dear friend

Woah… Keeping the faith
Woah… Keeping the faith

Look up to the stars and pray to God
Heaven is a place dreams come true
You are always there to guide me home
We are what we are from lessons learned
Life goes on

(repeat chorus)

Woah… Keeping the faith
Woah… Keeping the faith


Woah… Keeping the faith
Woah… Forever

(repeat chorus)

Woah… Keeping the faith
Woah… Forever
Woah… Forever you’ll never walk alone
Woah… Forever ooo…

I will never let you walk alone



So I was working on this assignment…

Today, I did not sleep before my IB class. Woohoo! Because I was working on some novel analysis thing for my English course which was dued today. After IB I didn’t go and fellowship and eat with my friend and her friends at the canteen because I was working on the assignment. I went for my next class a little later than usual because I was working on the assignment. It’s alright because my lecturer gives about 10 mins grace period. In that class, I was given a new assignment. A MAJOR assignment because I have to make a “How-to video” by myself…I wish I have bros or sis that could assist me in this. I still have no decided what am I going to do. There will be no late submissions and this assignment accounts for 30% of my final grade.

I planned what I was going to eat the day before – Chee Chong Fan. But when I was at the Canteen, there was a booth selling lunch boxes at RM 1 ! That is about USD 0.30. I like vegetarian char siew! but today, I ate the most siao bai chai in a day this year. I bought two boxes. It comes with a bread and a bottle of water too. But i didn’t take the water. Then I had a small serving of Cintan maggie curry noodles. I wanted to take it myself at first when I bought my lunchbox, but I couldn’t carry anymore stuffs. Thank God I was carrying a paper bag with me. But then, a guy came around with the tray of samples!


Then I continue to work on my assignment in the library, it took me a while to finally settle down on a stop. I met my classmate; she also have not finished. She didn’t have lunch. Then my other friend came and was looking at design and pop-up cards books in front of me. Then it was time for English. My lecturer read the whole of Act 4 by himself and I dozed off several times. Then more due dates. I have a collage (by free will) dued on Thursday and I have not even started. I need to plan it out soon.

After class, my lecturer said that I am snoopy. I immediately think of Snoopy and I said I like Snoopy. He said I shouldn’t look at other people’s stuffs, it’s not nice. I said I look at their stuffs to know what is required of me (furthermore they have no problems with it and sometimes I asked for permission first).

Since the start of the study of Much Ado About Nothing, I could not record my English class.

After class, I ate from the other lunch box I bought. Then I went down to the canteen to participate in some “Like us on FB” and you’ll get a voucher and/or Free JustTea. And that was how I got a voucher which I would not spend on and a FreeDrink worth RM 1.60. I didn’t like the page for the latter though, the girl went, “now that I’ve given you….you don’t have to like it.” when I enquired of her. I think if someone else attended to me, I’d have to give some info.

Then I struggled to finish. So I didn’t. Meanwhile, diff small groups of students wanted to use the classroom which we were using and they would ask “Are you having a class?” But since my friend and I are working on an assignment and we need the place to be quiet (the activities they would do are noisy ones) they left on their on intuition. But Soule came in to do his ISU assignment as well.

My friend and I decided to print our assignment at home because it costs 10 cents per paper and she has more than 10 pages and I have about 9. When you print something on both sides, it’s 20 cents. We could turn it in on turnitin and give him the assignment tomorrow. I printed mine in colooorrrr! and on both sides. If I were to print it in college, I would need to spend at least 5 ringgit to top up my ID card. And when would I print my assignment in college again? If I knew earlier that this assignment is not an in-class thing I would’ve done it earlier. This is the first time I am this last minute.

I tried to work on the same assignment in the bus but it was too bumpy and I was tired and there was no jam. I called my mom and I found out that she would be late. So I work on the assignment on the hot and roll stall’s (table/ whatever you call that). I finished at around 7.30 and had some time to check through some parts.

The battery went out so I packed my laptop. RIGHT AFTER THAT, my mom appeared.

Yay, God!


this week’s holiday is no holiday. It’d be all about ASSIGNMENTS. urgh. and studying for FINALS

The Final Rehearsal

I am now at the final rehearsal.

After the first song, I have a loooonng break. I don’t have to play for the next six songs.

It is Yahweh that have brought me this far and He is also the one that have enabled me. At one point I was really stressed -it was near that time of the month – I was overwhelmed with emotions and negativity . I thank God that He gave me good girlfriends who were patient enough to counsel, advice and bring me back to track.

As I have stated in one of my earlier posts, being in an orchestra is a dream that I never thought would come to past. And at this point in life, I come to recognize that my God works in ways I can’t fathom. He is more prone to giving me things I never thought I would obtain – this iPad, my college education, and this orchestra.

And yes, like _______ states, that His plans is better than my own. And if I were to restrain myself, it would be because I am afraid… That the waters would be too deep for me to walk. This is where I would need to learn to trust…and it’s not easy.

P.s. my audio post Oceansin tumblr have been receiving hundreds and hundreds of reblogs recently. It’ll be INFP of me to link this to God trying to convey a message to me. I should give the song a listen later. Hmmm

Through this orchestra, I’ve come to learn to love the brass family. When I was learning the theory of music, I didn’t fancy the brass and woodwind family because of ignorance. Now I really like it….after being situated behind them for all the practices and interacted with them. The french horn, trombone, trumpets, all sound really grand in their own way. Oh how I yearn for eternity. How I wished I know of all these earlier…but I must be thankful that I have this golden privilege and opportunity. It’s not too late yet! I just have to be determined and overcome the brick walls that Randy Pasch talks about in his book, The Last Lecture.

However, the time is short and I need to be focused…I need to do what I need to do. I want to do many things, but time is short. And I believe that unless the Lord giveth, I would be striving in vain.

Thank You Yahweh for showing Your goodness, mercy, faithfulness, and love to someone undeserving like me. Thank You for speaking good things into my life and thank You for Your words of encouragement and knowledge.

#Good to me song

I am going to miss this when it’s over. Such rare privilege! What can I do to cherish these moments to its fullest? Life goes on.

I should start by signing off. =D

Thank You again, Yahweh.

Total Lunar Eclipse 2014

The sun will be turned to darkness and the moon to blood before the coming of the great and glorious day of the Lord. Acts 2:20

The sun will be turned to darkness and the moon to blood before the coming of the great and dreadful day of the LORD.  Joel 2:31


Astronomical events have been making headlines lately. On April 8, the orbits of Mars, Earth, and the sun fell into a straight line in a rare cosmic alignment called an opposition. Precisely one week later, we will see the first of four extremely unusual total lunar eclipses.

Didn’t expect the moon to appear as big as shown in the picture. The moon over here always appear 70% smaller.

something significant is going to happen

*to be edited

The sun will be turned to darkness and the moon to blood before the coming of the great and glorious day of the Lord. Acts 2:20

Thank YOU

Last week had been the crazy week…it was the most overwhelming week I can remember in the history of me in college.

A quiz on (last) Friday, an assignment dued, duties cell group……at the same time was really bothered by some comments that mother made, and there was the rehearsal on Sunday night, and the real show in a week’s time.

I felt really helpless…just thinking about it. The problem was with the thinking about it and the emotions that came with it. pms

I think it was before English class on Thursday, I was in the library (i think)…the only thing I remember was me resting my head on my arms on the table, closing my eyes, crying out, “Help me, help me God. Help me.”

(I need to learn to be more descriptive)

Then the lecturer told us that the assignment is postponed – I was so stressed on those days that I forgot the word postponed. So now the assignment would be dued on Wednesday. What a relief!

Last last sunday, the youth were told that there would be no youth service for the rest of the month! It is a relief because I was on duty and I couldn’t ask anyone to replace me because I didn’t want to bother my friends, they have assignments and a lot of things going on too and if they were to replace me, I won’t be able to replace them soon. Some of them are playing two instruments, so if they were to replace me….they won’t have a break. And if there is no youth service…they won’t be cell on Good Friday. Ok, where’s the logic. But yeah.

The musical is this weekend and I want to be as stress free as possible.

To ease of the stress, I bought and ate my favorite foods. Seaweed! and tried Za Jiang Mien. I went to the mall, which is right beside the campus, and ate the nitrogen ice cream on discount and try new cheap foods and look at groceries.

My friends also tried to speak sense into my mind. Thanks, girls. =D


After I cried out, Help me, Help me. God, please help me…one thing after another came crumbling down and I felt more liberated. I also divine appointment-ly came across songs that spoke for me and spoke to me. Thank You, Yahweh.


Received my mid-terms result, English has the lowest mark yet. UGH, essays. I am thankful that I have quite a lot of freedom with my independent assignment. I could voice my faith and what I believe in more freely because my lecturer is a Catholic or an Anglican….I’ve forgotten. He told me in a story format. HAh

Enquired about the degree. Is it really what You want for me? You will reveal to me in Your time. 8 months.

Library is giving away books this Friday.


Tomorrow, Wednesday, and Thursday. I’d have to take the bus….Oh God, protect me. and, enable me. Please.


Just Be Held – Casting Crowns


Hold it all together
Everybody needs you strong
But life hits you out of nowhere
And barely leaves you holding on

And when you’re tired of fighting
Chained by your control
There’s freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go

So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your world’s not falling apart, its falling into place
I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held

If your eyes are on the storm
You’ll wonder if I love you still
But if your eyes are on the cross
You’ll know I always have and I always will

And not a tear is wasted
In time, you’ll understand
I’m painting beauty with the ashes
Your life is in My hands

Lift your hands, lift your eyes
In the storm is where you’ll find Me
And where you are, Ill hold your heart
I’ll hold your heart
Come to Me, find your rest
In the arms of the God who won’t let go